Healing

(April 19, 2006)

Days go by and I feel so alone

Since you went away

It’s so hard to believe you are really gone

That you took your life that way

The pain doesn’t ease, I miss you so

The stages of grief are real

Over and over through each one I go

Hoping that somehow I will heal

It hurts to see everyone just move on

When I feel so much pain

Please don’t you see my son is gone

I feel like I am going insane

Each morning I rise and start a new day

As hard as it may be

To make sure your brother and sister are okay

I have to also take care of me

Your smiling face and goofy grin

Are always on my mind

Memories help the healing begin

And I pray that one day peace I will find

My Precious Son

(February 7, 2006)

A precious gift from God was my son

Sent down to me, he was a special one.

He had a loving and caring heart

But now until eternity we are apart.

I will never forget that fateful day

When my precious son decided to go away.

He took his life by his own hand

This is something we will never fully understand.

The Bible teaches don’t ask why

So in God’s holy name I will rely

For strength and wisdom to see me through

So that I can begin life anew.

A life that is different and not quite whole

But knowing that with God  is his precious soul.

And one day when my time is here

I will be with my precious son and hold him near.

I Sit and I Cry

(April 25, 2006)

I sit and I cry

Screaming, why God why

To my child, I said goodbye

Now’s he gone

I feel all alone

How am I supposed to go on

With each passing day

The pain doesn’t go away

No matter how hard I pray

Life’s not fair

Pain we all must bear

But through it all remember God does care

Each night as I lay my head to rest

I pray that God knows best

And through this tragedy, somehow I will be blessed.